IS THIS REALLY GOODBYE???

my letter of goodbye

HI THERE,

Where do I start? I wish I could tell you how much I still love you with all my heart. You're thousands of miles away from me.It's been a long time since we've talked and I miss you. I know I acted mad and dumb. If I could turn back  the time I would make things right.I don't know how to start this letter; I have so much emotion in my heart. I never thought this would happen, never thought that it would be over, that we would say our last goodbye.I want you to know that you will always be in my heart. The times we spent together I will carry forever deep in my soul.Every day, I'm waiting for signs, which sometimes leaves me with hopeless expectations. A simple smile makes me happy. A short conversation makes my whole day brighter. You fill the empty space in my heart, this is how you make me feel every day. Maybe I'm still not over you, even if I sing 1000 times that I'm over you, I know deep in my heart that I'm not. I'm still waiting and wanting to be with you again. I still want you back! Well, I don't know if you care now or if you've lost feelings for me... I don't know how you feel. My feelings for you are still the same and memories don't erase, they stay with me. Now I realize that it's true; you really don't ever know what you've got till you lose it. I lost you and if there was any way I could talk to you again I would, but you seem to have forgotten about me and you'll probably never read this, but this how I feel and I miss you.Thank you for coming into my life. I miss those times when you call me “BABY”.

I know I'm not the kind of woman you've dreamed of, but still you loved me for what I am. If you only knew how happy I was to have you and how my life fell apart when I lost you. I know that I've hurt you so many times and that I shouldn't be bothering your life now. I know that I said, "Let me go," but still here I am asking for another chance, if you could still be mine. Things really changed when you left. My life started to lose direction. I must admit, I still can't move on. I kept on blaming myself, it was my entire fault. I've been too selfish, too hard on you. Now I'm starting to realize that you were too good for me. You are a very good man and you deserve someone better than I am. I tried to change for you, but my efforts were not enough. I hope somehow, I made your life special, though I've not been perfect for you. I hope you'll be happy now and that you can find the person whom you truly deserve. If you really decide to let go, then I can do nothing. I know sorry is not enough for the things I have done but I hope my sincerity is enough. I regretted those foolish things that I've done. Because of those things, I lost you, I lost my life. And I'll never love again because of that. But if you can give me another chance, I swear this time I'll make sure I never, ever let you go. Even if it will take me a lifetime,I would not want another love than you. I'd rather be alone than to be with someone who can't take your place. We've done our best to make our relationship last longer, but things happen and we had to say goodbye. This goodbye would not mean forgetting our memories, they are too special to forget. It does not mean forgetting the things in our past that made us both better individuals. We had to say goodbye but I want you to remember this ... you will always have a special place in my heart. I consider myself lucky to experience a love as wonderful as yours. For the last time, I love you.